Everyone says 40 is the new 30. I don't know if I feel 40 or 30. I don't think I feel either. But I definitely know my 20s are far behind me. I guess 40 makes me think of my dad who at that age was married with 4 kids. When dad was 40 I, the oldest of 4, was 18. Paolo, the youngest, was 11. 4 years later my parents would go their separate ways after 24 years of marriage. But still, at 40 my dad was married and had 4 children.
I know times have changed, but here I am at 40, single, childless, renting an apartment. Maybe that's why I don't feel like a grown-up. All those things that we associate with adulthood, have so far eluded me. At this point, I don't think I will have any kids. By the time I meet someone and we are in a strong relationship where a child could be welcomed, it will be too late. I don't want to be over 60 when my kid is 20. Even if by then 60 is the new 50.
I will have to settle for being the coolest uncle to my 4 nephews and 1 niece (so far), and my 3 "adopted" nieces and 1 nephew.
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